You know it's bad when you have "make a list" on your list...

Yep, that's right folks, I've lost it. I have officially moved on to 100% wedding mode. It consumes my thoughts. Unfortunately, I have a lot of other things that are occupying many of my thoughts as well. I am in quite a conundrum because I have so much to focus on and can't seem to focus my full attention on any one thing.

But, this blog is to talk about the wedding, and not my other life woes, so here's what's going on with the wedding...

Sara and I have some pretty good ideas about what we want to do for invitations, cake, food, decorations, rings... The invitations are going to be a bit of work, but are scaled down from my original plan. :-) My original plan involved probably one hour on each invitation. Yes, I know, I'm crazy. We have already established this. My scaled down idea will be much easier. I need to relinquish a bit of control and realize that I can allow others to help and it will be okay. Part of me is worried about letting others help because what if they don't do it perfect? I think others are also afraid to volunteer to help because they know I can be a bit anal. I need to find a balance.

One thing I am willing to relinquish a lot of control on is food. I sent an email yesterday to some friends and family asking if there is any appetizer-type food that they would be willing to provide. So far no response, but it's only been 11 hours. I know the wedding is four months away and some people may not understand why I'm asking this so early, but I need to feel like I have one aspect of the wedding under control. If I know that certain individuals are bringing food then I will feel more comfortable. I'm not willing to just "see what falls into place." I have enough anxiety as it is. Sara understands this and is doing her best to help with this. She has a lot of supportive friends and I'm sure that she can get a few that will be willing to provide some type of appetizer. If anyone reading this wants to provide something, please just email/comment/text/call Sara or I so that we can put you on the list. If you need ideas, we can provide those as well.

We decided we need to go look at the Cascade Garden again and determine what decorations we will be needing. We have some ideas. And, of course, our 1000 cranes. What's the crane count now? you ask? Well.... it's about 133. we have a LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG way to go. Sara and I need to get down to some serious crane making business. In order to get all the cranes done, Sara and I have to make roughly 5 cranes each per day. We better get craning!!

Wedding favors... I think we're the most set there. I think I've told people that I'm doing a candy table. We have most (possibly all) of the jars/containers. I have some ribbon to decorate them. And we have all the stuff to put together the containers. WOO HOO! We don't have the candy, but that's not something we can get this far in advance, otherwise I would eat it all! I'm feeling comfortable in this area. Hooray!

Flowers... AHHHH! This is probably my biggest area of anxiety. Originally Sara and her sister had this idea to go to Pike's Place Market the day before the wedding in order to get a bunch of flowers there and put stuff together the night before. While I love this idea, I think it may be the wrong time of year to rely on Pike's Place. When we were last there I asked what type of flowers they had available in October...they said dahlias. That's ALL they said. Um..... while I agree that dahlias are beautiful, I would like more than just dahlias. In fact, I have this vision of having red, orange, yellow, green, blue, and purple flowers. I think the green is just going to be the greenery, but the other colors I would like to see.... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! This is stressing me out.

Ok...I need to turn my focus on to other things. It will all work out. It will all work out. Sara and I have agreed to talk wedding tonight.

We also need to narrow down our guest list.... It seems as though we are hearing left and right that people aren't coming to our wedding... FINE THEN! If you don't WANT to be there, then we don't want you there! This is a celebration of our love and committment and if you can't handle that, then stay home. Ok... I feel better getting that out.

Thoughts are swirling ....

So ....

There are 4 months until the wedding and there is so much left to do.
There are thoughts and plans that are swirling in our head and they desperately need to be put into action. However, putting them all into action requires money! Ugh! Money does not come easily. Can someone find me a darn money tree??!

We finally thought of an idea for our wedding cake ... Actually, we have a clear vision of what we want. There is one thing ...one significant thing... missing --->someone to make the cake. We have an idea of someone, but I have to figure out how to contact her and see if she wants to make this cake. And...guess what...it requires MONEY!

We have a photographer...and thank goodness she is patient, because I don't know what we would do if she wasn't.

We do have the location reserved and paid for, and we have the time set. Woo hoo hoo!

A list needs to be made.... and money needs to be gotten....
Our mind needs to switch to wedding focus.

We will get there.
Time to go get to work. Focus on work....focus focus focus.
Can't I just take the next 4 months off and plan the wedding?!? :-)